Quite time, a hard thing for me to Ponder

I was just reading a blog post by Michael Hildalgo titled "the beauty and terror of silence".
You really should read it. http://michaelhidalgo.blogspot.com/
Michael was a pastor at Ridge Point Community Church. In my mind it was for way to brief a time. Michael is gifted. He left Ridge Point to be the lead pastor at Denver Community Church in Colorado. This is a good place for him to be, but I am selfishly still sad that he is gone.

So, anyway, once again I am challenged. I have a very hard time being still. My T.V. is almost always on, even though I really don't watch it. It's just noise, company. If the T.V. isn't on, music is. My cell phone is always at my side. So is my laptop. I am in touch. I won't miss a beat. And then there is everything to be done. Cleaning, organizing, working, thinking about work, cooking, running, organizing some more, cleaning some more, decorating, planning the next family holiday, shopping lists, laundry, running, running again, surfing for ways to make all those things even better and more organized.

Stop. Just stop! Oh, but I can't. It feels wrong to sit, to do 'nothing'. Is it a dutch upbringing?

"Idleness is the root of mischief. This maxim has been traced back to Chaucer's 'Tale of Melibee' (c. 1386). First attested in the United States in 'Collections' (1808). The proverb is found in varying forms: Satan has some mischief for idle hands to do; The devil finds work (or mischief) for idle hands to do.
Crazy. I found this info on a myspace blog. Some guy pretty much asking the same questions.

I want to read more, study more, learn more, help more people. BUT....what do I do about being a very social person, a busy body, a 'want to be in the loop' kind of person, an A.D.D. personality, a type A personality, a perfectionist, a person who wants to make sure everyone around me is happy?

Mary or Martha? Who am I and who do I want to be? Is there a balance?

Luke 10:38-42

As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" "Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

It all comes down to the POSSIBILITIES I guess. And an awareness and willingness to change where change should be made.

And spending some quite time...with God. That is quite simply where it all starts. And so I start.